I've been thinking a lot when I'm down. Maybe it was because I have a lot of time facing on the book then half way study I will spend my precious time on day dreaming. Then I start to think a lot negative stuff. I was once a negative mindset person until someone told me about the secret- to be positive in order get all wishes fulfilled. So, I tend to remind myself all the time, to be happy. This works all the time but when I'm alone or those PMS days, then I will be super down and negative again. Can't help. 

I can't remember since when i wasn't that care of people's view on me. I don't know since when I start to seek for freedom and just want to be myself. Before this, I was super care about what people think about me and why am I still single. I was living under a set of standards. Thank god now I changed and I start to love this single and free life. Anyway, I hope my change doesn't affect anybody.

Last time, I was super care about my friend's feeling too and I almost got angry if they din shared their problem to me. Maybe I was just too busybody. But, they seems doesn't appreciate what I do but felt stressed. I'm really sorry. I just want to be caring and be a good listener. 

Sorry for wasting your time on reading all my mixed up thoughts. This is just another random post.

Should doze off now and wish for the best for tomorrow.