Lost days, pictures fade.


Thursday, November 30, 2006
at 14:29

here r d pic i take in everise(padungan) for my dear erna.
^^ cant manage to get many n clear pic
coz i think at thr shouldnt take pic de. =P


at 00:20

说真的,你心里想什么我还是抓不到.. 你在做什么我也不知道. 虽然只有我一直在关心你,希望更了解你,一直在努力..也许你真的很忙. 可是我就是相信你. 相信你. 相信你. 我只能把我能做的做到最好. 我相信,有一天爱神会双倍奉还给我的. 没法子,我就是这样的女孩.控制不了对你好,控制不了想念你,控制不了自己不去爱你..
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
at 13:26

忽然想起妹妹说的话,很想写下来. 她说..
当 你只知道一个人的好,而不知道他的坏. 那么就代表你还不了解他.. 所以爱一个人不会因为太了解他或知道了他的坏而放弃他,离他而去.. 虽然你有点固执,但是我也有啊. 你的忽冷忽热,我可以包容啊. 你抽烟喝酒,我想大部分男生都会吧. 虽然我讨厌烟味,我从第一天认识你我就知道了. 也不是讨厌啦,只是每次有人在我面前抽的话,我会喘不过气来咯.可是,你可以不在我面前抽嘛.. 在我的眼里,你的坏并不算坏. 因为他就是你特别的地方. 你也有你的优点啊. 没有人是十全十美的.. 比你好的人也许有很多,但是他们都不是你啊..
-还是很想你-

很烦.很讨厌跟他们聊起.我知道你们不希望我离开你们.可是,我已经长大了.你们是不可能一辈子绑住我的.我知道妹妹很好.对你们来说她什么都好.我知道我要得是什么.你们就不能支持我吗? 不要给我压力了好吗?我很担心我有一天会崩溃然后做傻事.我不能把这些告诉茹.因为她会对我说教.到时候我又更烦.我根本没有朋友能够谈心了.茹变了,志嵩沅达我不想烦,伟威也有他的问题,英群太远了.. 我只能坚强的面对. 哭过后遗忘.只要笑一笑,真的没什么大不了吗? =(
Monday, November 27, 2006
at 15:50

today is mondae again.. mean tat i still hav 5 more weeks to sch reopen
jus now i counted d lesson of my biology n chemistry worksheet which is my holiday work..i still hav 83 pages for biology n 56 pages for chemistry.. all togather i hav 139 pages wor.. omg.. n then i still need to do scrapbook for PA (general paper). n i target myself to complete those math ex in textbook for chapters which teacher hav taught. n i wanna do my PA notes. i think all of these will ady used up my hol

i really dun hav time to do prefect service!! anyway,i'll pass up money on time by usin my OWN money! i'm usin d money which i earn at nite to pay for it.. coz i really dun wan to use my time to earn somemore n then no time to do my hol work.. really tons of work WAITIN for me.

i wanna wake up early in morning to study de. but then jus coz of too tired after workin last nite, i slept till 11.30am todae.. feel so sorry to myself. n jus now i sent sista to their wushu association centre thr.. i drive thr without mum besides wo. so happy!! ^^

last nite bud sent msg to me tat this thurs no time to go out with me again.. sob sob >.< . receive cindy's msg tat she is now in KL wo.. cant wait to meet her toooo... yesterday nite i did something silly with sis.. hehe.. we record our conver n replay it to hear our own voice.. so silly but we laugh for whole nite. n sista is sayin out things tat we play in older time such as cookin? makin own clothes? n some more silly game which i cant really believe y we play it last time. n mum doesnt knew it wor.. haha.. so silly but tat is OUR younger time memories.. ^^
oh ya.. last nite my workin fren says tat me n him(colar bear) looks alike.. haha.. after home i tell mah sis then they start comparing our pic.. haha.. so funny
Saturday, November 25, 2006
at 14:57

i cried last nite.. i din look for buddie o even syndy i din told..
i only msg u.. i really feel so tired at tat moment..
n i feel like my heart so heavy n so many things bothering me..
i wanna cry out n release it..anyway.. is over n i think i'm ok now..
too emotional mayb? tears jus fall down suddenly n i'm shock by myself also
-sorry-
i really not thinkin too much
jus tat feel so tired of this kind of life..
i bet syndy ever cry coz of studies also..
buddie is far away from me..
i cried coz some memory comes n then think back she isnt same with me now..
so no matter how she doesnt understand me like previous time de..
n everytime if we meet sure will only talk bout happy thing coz long time din see
bout d bad part.. who can i tell?
i wan to b a happy n cheerful gurl.. so i will keep d thing inside my heart.
yesterday i feel like i hate to go thr work
but i noe d purpose i go workin so everytime i reach thr..
i'll tell myself tat.. 3 hours isnt long.. it will soon b ten o'clock
so funny yea?
am happy tat i saw ur nudge jus now.. coz i noe u r workin now
at least i noe u care me ^^
-now-
continue study n study... busy life..
today wanna do math.. tomoro dunno do wat lo..
so borin n lazy.. but u r owes my energy for me to continue..
i dun wan to bother bout d prefect stuff..
i'll follow my way.. jus pay for myself n i think i'll ask my member to work themself..
i dun k anymore.. my studies comes 1st..
n this exam is really so important to me
so i dun wanna regret coz of this..

Thursday, November 23, 2006
at 00:20

今天去当陪嫁姐妹.. 呵呵 凑凑热闹 =P
第一次参加这样的典礼..
因为冲肖鸡的所以姨姨都没去.. 我竟然跟她传短训.. 很奇怪的感觉
巴迪说我们的约会要改期了.. 好失望哦... 555
因为她要去报名嘛... 只能这样咯...原本还想跟她拍照还有去逛一整天哦..
看来要延迟了... 好久不见了... 很想念她哦..
今天的心情不知道怎么说...
言语间我有种幸福的感觉.. 虽然只是短短两分钟
跟妈他们说了后,你跟我好像又更好了..
那么我们算是情侣吗? 我不敢再问了
我已经不记得我问过多少次了..今天你说是,明天你又问我'我了解你吗'
了不了解你是要时间去证明的,去了解的
就是这样,我只能说我的status是it's complicated
不知道你有没有发现到,.有一段时间我都叫你dear
过后,有一段时间又没有再叫了.. 那时是我问你我算不算kss's gf后..
我不敢再叫是因为我没有那个资格..我还是不被肯定的..
那五个字,几时才会从你嘴说出来? 对你可能不重要吧?
可是,被肯定是很重要的.. 至少我知道我在你心里的位置..
要说自然会说,要讨的反而没什么意思.. 我想,要是你说了.. 我可能会高兴上好几天吧?
我就是这样的女孩
我也好久没对你说'我想你'了... 我没有勇气再大声对你说... 只能在心里呐喊
你呢?你又有没有想我呢? 我也不知道..
你没有告诉我,所以我不知道.. 自己感觉? 搞不好是错觉
我以前是个很胆小的人.. 遇见了你,我变得比较大胆了.. 可是其实还是很胆小
上个星期,你又问我了解你么? 我没有勇气问你,那你又了解我么?
那晚,我竟然想写个自我介绍.. 把我的东西都写给你看... 好傻
很奇怪对吧? 我也觉得我很奇怪.. 可是,喜欢你让我变成这样
男生反应真的都比较慢吗?
你感受到我的努力了吗?我一直努力的让你了解我..
我就是不想那么容易放弃..是我太执着?
你真的很奇怪.. 要是不把我当女友..
那么要是我答应了陪你去参加婚宴..我又是以什么身份出席呢?
我在想,我的感觉是对还是错呢? 我觉得你不可能对我没感觉..
要不然不会这样过了两年.. 还有,你应该也不会要我陪你去旅行吧..
关键都在你身上.. 你就是沉默不言.. =(
每每想起你说的话,总有些感触,
你并不是对我来说什么都不是的人... 你是那个住在我心里的人
那我呢?有没有一个小小的位置在你心里呢?
我并不在意你伤我有多深,而是你所对我说过的一切
你所说过的话,我都记得..
对别人来说可能很普通的东西.. 可是我却能高兴好几天.. 很傻
有时候要写信息都要想很久.. 因为我不懂你看了会怎样
朋友说我太在乎你的感受了
这个部落格.知道的人不超过五个.. 因为都是我内心话
我也不懂会不会有人看.. 无所谓.. 这只是一个我想写东西的地方
很多东西我都不能对人说因为他们不是巴迪.. 自从巴迪不在我身边开始,我变得有点心事重重
可是我还是会每天开开心的过.. 开心不开心还是要过



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Monday, November 20, 2006
at 22:51

tonite am goin to attend auntie's weddin dinner wor..
talk bout her a bit..
umm.. she noe this hubby only not more than one year..
but then they get married within one year..
pls dun think other.. they r not gettin married coz of BB =P



next,, is a few pic i take inside d hall... =P
= auntie n her fiancee=>> <<=daddy n mummy= looks so young o ^^
babe janice.. see her chubby look: daddy n sista; =me n kaihoong=

uncle suddenly askin me bout joshua.. he ask me whr is him now?
i said in kl le.. study engineering ma..
he askin like this make me think tat he mus be thinkin he is my bf.. =P
coz of d time i bring him to work togather??
aihyo.. we r best friend ma.. need me to say how many times???
then he askin me again..
who is my bf? shocked me n i jus saying.. y suddenly ask me?
he jus ask me to tell him whether he noe him ma?
then i say ya ya.. n then he ask me wat is he doin as now?
then i cant tell him ba.. if i tell him sure he noes de..
then i try to go away from him.. hope he forget d topic..
-went to toilet n call him at d another hall-
tellin him still laugh kok... u r.. din tell me wat should i do one
go back to table.. then uncle suddenly says..
i noe who is he liao...
is his name start with s.u n d last name same with my last name?
hehe... i dunno how to say..
he is rite but then i dunno wat expression i should give him..
admit also not n say no also not...
lastly i ask him again.. y ask me such qs suddenly?
he jus saying no need to guess liao.. i noe who he is liao.. kektiok
i guess he can guess so easily since he noes i wan to go sabah
n i think he will noe thru d way i talk ma...
n i ever think tat he got suspect us le...
nvm.. noe jiu noe lo... =P


=pic with sista while i wan to use up all batt=

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Sunday, November 19, 2006
at 17:32

a pic which i took it yesterday b4 goin work=P

it is sunday again.. n today is my off day..
ya.. i'm happy coz no need to work lo..
so lazy these dayz n i slept till 1200 noon..
such a long time.. n i really din follow wat i hav plan tat is study in d morning n afternoon...
i'm so lazy n there r lots of thing waitin for me..
i just listed it all out...
how am i goin to put all this thing inside my mind..
wait.. let me finish..
i noe i wont give up my dream goin thr..
jus tat i wanna release my tension n stress..
jus miss him so much
i told him tat i'll b goin thr.. but then can we meet?
will he feel like wanna meet me? i dunno
i jus noe i would like to see him for i really miss him so much
anyway, wat i'm thinkin is.. if u really wan it, u can make it..
dun think bout tat first la.. it will only happen after 3 more months
oh ya.. talk bout gastrik..
omg. i hate it man!!! so painful n it torture me..
fine fine.. i'll not touch coffee like mum say,,
remember to eat breakfast n lunch...
hope it wont gettin worst n worst..

today is only sunday.. i really wish i can go out with buddie liao wor..
aihyo... i wan to watch death note..
who can accompany me? go out with sis mah?
oh god,, she is goin with her fren n possiblely her bf..
i dun wan to b a light bulb n it is boring to hang out with her fren..
buddie.. hope u will accompany me fully next thursday..
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nite 0950pm..
i told my mum bout him.. FINALLY
i'm happy now coz i told her n she says ok le..
hehe.. she says no wonder someone wan to go sabah study..=P
i give her see our pic.. n she says he looks nice wor..
nth much lo.. am happy tat next year when i'm goin thr i can meet him la..
n jus now callin him he jus saying he might come here next year march o april too..
now only wish tat desmond a..
pls dun pick d time i go thr then he come here wor..
desperately wish to see him

hehe.. receive his call jus now
he is so funny wor..
haha.. dun worry la.. i wont force u to see my mum one la..
she already see u in d pic liao ma..
i jus wan to see u nia.. i dun k other thing

now i'm chattin with ho hun.. he start to advice me again..
he scare tat i'm d one who cry coz cant get into uni..
n i cant let it happen..
so.. if i turn to b seldom online.. pls b understandin wor..
coz i'm workin hard to b with u
*gambateh*



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Thursday, November 16, 2006
at 17:05

Another day has gone
I’m still all alone
How could this be
You’re not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

#Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
But you are not alone#

’lone, ’lone
Why, ’lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

repeat##

Whisper three words and I’ll come runnin’
And girl you know that I’ll be there
I’ll be there

repeat##

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone...

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at 13:15

morning 1030am...
me, syndy, jen ai, joash, kai liang, yii soon, lynda, priscilla n jason...
we all go to dong guan to eat dim sum wor... ^^
there r some pic taken thr by me... haha..
we actually hav a nice talk thr...
laughters here n thr wor..
me n syndy is goin thr by kailiang's car..
see.. a pic taken by syndy when he stop at traffic light..^^
kailiang is a bit looks shy to take pic wor.. haha

staying thr bout an hour i think...
yii soon seems to b changed to another person..
wow.. he wanna study civil engineerin wor...
i wonder how was his mum(my primary english teacher) now?


here r those pic..

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*yii soon n kai liang*

*jason n joash*

*jen ai n lynda*
*syndy n me*

*me n ma ing*

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at 02:10

等待

我一直害怕等待 等待很孤独很寂寞也很悲哀 所以 许多人宁愿被等也不愿等

害怕因为不愿这等待是空的 脑子想的不是你几时会来 而是你还记得我正在等待吗?是否有想起我 还是我并不需要等 很彷徨很无助很空虚 但又有谁能告诉我这等待到底值不值得

现在我并不想害怕 不想让你有任何的压力 虽然害怕 但闭上眼睛 想你曾经对我的好 你的温柔 那是我的幸福 不想贪 告诉自己我该满足了

爱情总是要在对的时间遇到对的人 算我固执我任性我执着 虽然时间不对 但自己的幸福自己争取 这简单的道理我还懂 所以就算是空等待 我依然坚持着 不想让自己有遗憾

对我的任性我不后悔反而觉得骄傲 因为我的任性让我变得勇敢 而许多人少了这一点 就算你没法让时间停留在我这里 别为我难过 别觉得为难 我不会伤心虽然会觉得可惜 但我知道我努力过了...

from a frenz bloggie.. really touch d bottom of my heart..

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at 01:48

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i changed my template lu...
am so happy n i like it so much wor..
it looks peace n i like it more than my previous blog..
i wanna put many pic i can.. ^^
-jus now receive his call-
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understand d hidden msg? ^^

thought by mr choo today.. hehe
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
at 23:56

today extra class recess time is 45 mins wor..
teacher treat us so good today..
then we go canteen eat lo..
jen ai sit to next table then she suggest go mcdonal eat ice cream wor...
haha... then joash drive us thr lo....
kinda fun ye.. say go then jiu go liao...
after back to class.. jus a bit sad tat y last time me with buddie them not like this...
msg msg msg with buddie...
then mr choo saying tat tomoro he wanna end d class earlier bout 10 something..
then joash start to say we r goin for drink after tat..
hehe.,. i love my class...
they r so funny sometimes
n i never thought tat we can mixed so fast jus within half year...
i heard tat zi ning is goin to make a gathering end of this month?
but then i think i'll not able to go.. ='(
gathering is fun wor..

my weight is losing down durin these few weeks..
i'm on diet for sure...
but then mayb a bit of stress too...

-after sch-
i accompany my mum to air asia to comfirm d flight..
is confirmed...

8/3 depart at 7.40pm
arrive at 9.05pm
19/3 depart at 1.45pm
arrive at 3.10pm

then i'll miss two day's classes...
umm i think will scolded by teacher..
but then my ticket is already booked wo...
i wan to meet him!!! i wanted it so much...
no one will understand my feeling when i noe tat he might comin..
n then d feelin of disappointment after i noe he wont b comin..
n then suddenly, mum is tellin me we r goin next year...
feel happy at tat moment..
then when they search for tickets,,,
mum couldnt match d date then she say 10 days is too long..
so we r not going.. coz papa cant get tat long leave..
or after he went back kch leave us thr also we dunno how to go thr around d city...
then i disappointed again... damn sad!!!
d next morning after tat, mum says tat uncle's wife found d matched date then we can go again..
quiet happy n she say will booked ticket on tat nite...
but then durin d time they booked...
uncle's wife's laptop hanged...
so d ticket is pending.. n i'm not sure is it really booked..
see... so many things happen to make me feel sad..
really will heartattack... give me hope n make me disappoint again n again...
finally today i accompany mum to go confirm..
thanks a lot tat is confirmed..
n i already tell mum since months ago..
tat if i'm goin thr for holiday..
i will go n meet somebody... sure i din tell who la...
mum says tat this time we go can noe more about d place..
so tat when i go thr study wont b tat kelam kabut lo..
so is it tat i should start to remember d place? haha
yeah.. i will got d chance to passby d uni
then i can look at d outlook also fun ma..

@> ts's bday is comin_this saturday



Tuesday, November 14, 2006
at 23:16

mood-quiet ok
today we have our extra class for bio n math..
but then lastly joash says tat math teacher is not coming
so no extra class for math.. hurray!! ^^
syndy suggested go for a drink...
then me, ma ing, jen ai, joash, lynda n kailiang n also yih miin...
we all went for a drink at somewhr padungan thr near petanak..
i never noe tat thr are a lot of shop like tat..
n d environment is jus good though its name is a cafe..
d cafe we went named -berry cafe-

thr r some pic i take using my phone.. haha
i feel so fun like this...
n i like this kind of gathering with frenz...
i actually never thought tat i'll mix with them n hang out with them like this..
even my own best fren they all leave me alone...
yt n ts went for bowling with siong liong, augustine, thomas them...
tats wat i noe after i read his journal..
i jus dunno y mayb i'm a gurl..
i hardly mix with them again like last time without buddie...
quiet sad.. but nevermind... use to it already...

lets see pics..

=lynda n kai liang=

=joash n jen ai=

=syndy n ma ing=

=syndy n kelyn=

=syndy n kelyn=

nice mango sago

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Sunday, November 12, 2006
at 23:34

yeah.. i got a new blog again..
actually i'm kinda lazy to open a new one...
but then i ady tell my special bf>erna ..
so since tat i'm free now i open wor..
^^ erna.. i'll post u some pic when i really go shop yea?
lookin forward u to come back wor..
then we can shop togather..
sure i'll go out with u lol...

hol is start now... but then still hav a week of extra class..
tomoro will get my own phone...
haha.. i doesnt mean wat jus i'm happy tat i can own one finally
long time din go out to meet joo....
wanna call her jus now but then no one answer wor..

talk to him now...
he is askin wat if he ask me to go travel with him?
let say australia?
i'm really so happy to hear tat...
really n tats true...
but can i? i'm still under my parents...
i wish to b with him all d time..
sharing wat he had all d time..
i feel lonely too.. but i really couldnt do anything...
i wish to tell mum.. tats real..

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