Friday night, i was struggling on my work. Have been doing overtime non-stop for the whole week. I felt that i'm such a useless one to have so much backlogs. I feel like i wan to give up but something is stopping me to do so. That's why, me and my heart we got issue. To leave or to complete it.

I'm at the giving up state to solve the issue. I was browsing on my Facebook and i got a shocking news. Someone who used to be a special one, just left. All of the sudden, i felt super down and sad for his left. 

I still remember, two years ago we have a promise to meet up for tea if i come back to Kuching. But, we never had that due to some incident. And now, you are left forever! I don't know how to express my feeling. But, deeply i feel sad.

Back to me, this reminds me that i shouldn't have complain so much about my work. I'm lucky because i'm still alive. I should think that i'm capable at work that's why they were giving me so much work to complete in a short time frame. Maybe this is the intensive training that they want to give me. They are preparing me to be a better one.

I follow the updates from his left. Just knew that it was due to the cruel limba cancer that he just knew two years ago. Which means during his 24th :'( He is a cutie angel now. Now i understand why he haven't been in publicity for this 2 years. Read back his old posts. I can feel his never give up soul. He is still that kind of positive people and be happy while fighting with this cruel disease.

From now on, i will appreciate for all the thing i have. Less complains and be more happy. I'll keep put in more positive thinking on myself. Be true to myself and let those i loved knows that i love them.

Lastly, i wish you know that, you will always be remembered.